No Genesis

To live is to learn how to die To forgive is to grieve

A funeral under festival lights Spirit sing to me

Of the wonder after grief

To be free is a brokenness

A slave running into wilderness

Pulled out on a river

Where I’m always and never

Pulled above time

Taking me far beyond and deep inside 



Rope to the Cosmos

Every prophet reaches acceptance

At a threshold unknown lets go of his exit

But you won’t accept the long truth

You couldn’t forgive God for what meaning would cost you

Sometimes it’s painful thrown into meaning

But pain is the painkiller when you’re teething

We’re not so numb are we?

We just don’t know how to grieve the presence of beauty

I still can’t distill it

The most important piece is the one that’s missing

I know I’m a compromised witness

To understand this I’ve got to forgive it

I still don’t know what I’m cutting to the core of

Maybe the rope to the cosmos is just braided with boredom

I’m beginning to trust myself to see

From a part that’s never been wounded in me

Maybe the ocean of enlightenment

Was just a slow release of what I could never forgive

I’ve been trying hard to find someone to blame

There’s a silence that keeps calling my name

I’m at the threshold of if to take hold of 

What I can’t be

I’m forgiving the giving up of the ground of my being 

Ask a Child

Give up already

There’s no changing how we measure time

The future is only in your mind 

Give up already on time

You’ll never have less than what is in your mind 

Self-created pain is all you have

If you kill yourself with what may never be 

It’s a needless worry

It’s a needless worry

Ask a child how to be

Ask a child how to be 

The Next Age

Who will empathize with this question

It's been 2,000 years since the resurrection

Who will meet my eyes when I talk

Of the second crucifixion of God 

A voice still cries in the wilderness

The blood of the moon

We've waiting for 2,000 years

We still cry for manna 

In the kingdom of Heaven

There's water in the desert somewhere

When could we admit that Eden is gone?

When do you build a home in Babylon?

The shadow of the apocalypse has stretched so long

Is it an issue of waiting 

Or has it all already come?

A voice still cries in the wilderness

The blood of the moon

We've waiting for 2,000 years

We still cry for manna 

In the kingdom of Heaven

There's water in the desert somewhere

I wanna see the end

Of this aquarian age

But what then?

This book always needs another page

So what if love remained the same 

In the next age

And the next age

And the next age 

Famine Under Festival Lights

I don’t want to stay here

I want this feeling to leave

I’m still learning

All the same things

Again and again

I still haven’t gone where I’ve been

Deflect; misdirect

It’s hard to get yourself to want to reorient

I’ve grown so impatient

Since I stabilized

It feels like a death to sit still

So I distract to feel alive

It stays the same

I used to sit with the tension but it never changed

It’s hard to remain

It’s hard starting famine in a field of grain

For every hand reached to heaven’s high

I’d wait my whole life for a sign

Every time I stood mystified

The purple always fades back to white 

It’ll take my whole afterlife

To learn how to abide

It’s in the waiting I don’t know why

It’s hard starting famine under festival lights 

Lungs 

Cut me out this place

It’s not fair

I want to leave

Gasping at times 

My lungs, they tell me to breathe

Don’t want to be too morbid

Don’t want to bring you down

Like a child I say things out of place

Move on quickly don’t notice

Please don’t notice

The stress of two eyes on me

How many more might be

Is it selfish to wonder

Move on quickly don't answer

Please don’t answer

Pull my eyes pull my hair and my skin

Just limits to feel

Thank God for time

My lungs they tell me to breathe

The light of my love

Eclipses my practice of

sense; Heaven’s nudged

Me toward what I shun

I slip into the sun

Feeling for the fear I flee from

Too late to shut my ears

I’m in a world that’s called me near

I Thought I’d Escape This

I don’t even know what I thought I wanted

But I thought by now I’d have what as a kid I thought I saw in my parents 

I expected

By now every fundamental fear would fade into what I thought they fell back on

I’ve come of age

It’s the same

I don’t even how I thought I’d escape this

I don’t know what I thought was behind the curtain in the distance 

The real death

Was never in the dying – only in the resistance

But to blame

Is a hollow game 

Every Temple Curtain

My life until now

Was asking for easy ways out

Choice to run from choice that scared me

Was always still a cross to carry

I’m waiting for the big event

Waiting for the obvious

End of the story

But even that God won’t interpret for me

I may never really count the cost

I always prayed for freedom but now that I’m free I’m lost

It’s not that I can’t believe

It’s that I don’t want to grieve

I prayed for enlightenment but wasn’t prepared to weep

I’ve waited for God to vindicate me

For a faith that would save me

But Nazarites will lose their hair

Every temple curtain tears

The time has come to decide

How far I’ll go without a sign

I can’t follow into Jerusalem

Still playing dumb

I may never know that I know

In a dry and thirsty land my plea gets answered with a poem:

“World is adoration

Silence is saturation”

There’s freedom out of Egypt

But it’s straight into wilderness 

Take Me Home

Take me home

Across them wide, wide mountains

Oh time that has gone

Take me home

Return me to my sender

Take me home

I count the leaves

As they turn and as they're falling

I count the leaves

They're counting me

As I turn and as I'm falling

They're counting me

Take me home

Across them wide, wide mountains

Oh time that has gone

Take me home

Return me to my sender

Take me home

It weighs on me

And finds me in the strangest places

In seldom peace

It weighs on me

That I may ever see my brother

It weighs on me

Take me home

Across them wide, wide mountains

Oh time that has gone

Take me home

Return me to my sender

Take me home

Take me home

Across them wide, wide mountains

Oh time that has gone

Take me home

Return me to my sender

Take me home

In seldom peace

In seldom peace

In seldom peace...